"A Dancer's Destiny"
by Antoinette
Awayshak
It is
unusual for an Arab girl (bint Arab) to become a dancer. My
parents and Grandparents were Syrian and migrated to America
in the early 1900's I lived with an extended family, which
included my mother, grandmother, grandfather, three uncles
and two aunts. My grandfather was a cabinetmaker and he specialize
in making ouds and talwas (inlaid backgammon tables). I grew
up with the Arabic culture deeply ingrained in me. I ate Arabic
food, listened to Arabic music and spoke only Arabic until
I went to school. My mother sang at the Arabic "hafles"
and was accompanied by live music. Like many little girls
I would dance to the middle-eastern rhythms. My mother and
grandmother would take me to the movies to see the famous
dancers and singers. Dancers Tahia Carioca and Samia Gamal
fascinated me as they glided like gazelles in their gorgeous
costumes. At home I would amuse myself by watching myself
in the mirror imitating the dancers whom I had seen.
Out of
this background grew my love for dancing. I wanted desperately
to be a ballet dancer, but my mother wouldn't let me take
lessons for fear it would build ugly muscles in my legs. I
was so determined to learn that I secretly checked out ballet
books from the library and practice the steps on my own. Of
course I couldn't really learn much that way.
Finally,
after graduating High School, I could make my own choices.
One of the first jobs I had was teaching for Arthur Murray,
I reasoned that I would have to learn all of the dances in
order to teach them. The more I taught, the more I learned
and the more I found myself drawn to the Latin rhythms. I
found a dance partner and started doing exhibition dancing
at Latin concerts at the Palladium and other venues in Hollywood.
I met a young man who was a Flamenco dancer, Roberto Lorca
became my partner for some of the exhibitions. He had been
dancing with the Jose Greco Company. He aroused my interest
in Flamenco dancing. I could relate to the emotions and the
expressive nature of the Flamenco music and dance. It was
almost the same intensity of emotions and expressiveness of
Arabic music and dance. Roberto went on to become a successful
Flamenco dancer.
I married,
had a son and decided to go to college, but all I could concentrate
on was dancing, I took modern dance in college and then took
workshops taught by choreographer Lester Horton, who headed
a successful dance company.
Around
this time, my Mother was singing at Mahrajans (Arabic functions)
and there was a dancer by the name of Kanza Omar, who was
my idol. She came to the affairs dressed in Mink coats and
her costumes were dazzling, she looked like a movie star.
She was in several films in the Middle East and she was also
in a few American films I wanted to look like her when I danced.
I begged my Mother to ask Kanza to teach me to dance Arabic
(they were friends) unfortunately Kanza died an untimely death
but before that she had given my Mother one of her dancing
skirts to give to me.
I had
some Arabic girlfriends who were dancing in a small company
that was headed by an Arabic woman named Delila Muir. She
created Arabic shows around town and entertained soldiers
on Army bases. Her brother Antoon wore a turban and played
the drums and her other brother played the oud. I joined her
troupe at the urging of my friends. It consisted of four girls,
Delal and myself. We traveled around in a big bus to the shows,
sometimes hundreds of miles away. Delal was the star of the
show. Her performance included snakes slithering out of wicker
baskets. This type of dancing did not live up to my perception
of how Arabic dancing should be performed.
During
one of our performances at the Wilshire Ebell theatre, a woman
who had a Flamenco troupe performing that evening approached
me. She was Rita Lupino, and I believe she was the sister
of Ida Lupino, an actress who was popular at the time. Rita
asked me If I wanted to join her troupe, I explained to her
my limited Flamenco dance experience and the little Roberto
had taught me was not enough to perform professionally. She
said I had the perfect look for a Flamenco dancer and that
she would train me. Of course I was delighted and went to
her rehearsals and studied the routines, heelwork and castanets,
but it was short lived.
One of
the girls in Delals group went to audition for a dance job
in a Hollywood nightclub called the Fez Supper Club, she asked
me to accompany her. The fez featured an Arabic show, the
only one of it's kind at the time. They brought Arabic musicians,
and dancers from the Middle East. The food was Arabic and
the décor was right out of a scene from a Thousand
and One Nights. I had been to the Fez before. The owners were
two brothers, Lou and Fred Shelby. Lou was the violinist who
played at the Mahrajans where my Mother sang and Kanza danced.
My girlfriend auditioned but I was hired. Lou Shelby said
I looked just right for a belly dancer. My Arabic looks, olive
skin and long black hair helped. I told him I had never danced
in a nightclub nor have I ever danced solo. He said, "don't
worry about it we'll teach you." He asked me to start
the coming Friday night. The only other time I had ever dance
by myself in front of others was at the Peacock Alley, a jazz
club that featured an Arabic night with live music. I was
taunted into dancing by my Mother and some of her friends,
so dance I did, street clothes and all feeling totally mortified.
Little did my Mother know that she launched a career that
night that she was initially against.